Do not touch your body with bad intentions. Rub your belly when it is full. Stroke your soft skin. Hug yourself, even if it’s silly, because it feels nice. Pleasure yourself. Do not touch your body with bad intentions. Do not pinch at the fat on your stomach. Do not scratch at your skin. Do not hate the shell you’re encased in.

Anonymous said : Hey, so I've been following MM for 4/5 months and I've realised that I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE. I have no idea what I like, dislike, what my opinions are on things, what I like doing, etc. I feel so lost and confused. From the void of my eating disorder I have emerged with a zest for life but I don't know what to do with it! So I guess I was wondering if you ever experienced a similar identity crisis during recovery, and if so, how did you deal with it? xxxx 


Not knowing who you are anymore is all a normal part of recovery, so do not fear!

I mean, you’ve spent so long being totally inward looking and obsessing over calories, weight, exercise and striving to be thin or look a certain way… It has been the main focus of your life… And then suddenly, all that is gone. Your main focus? Gone. Your rules? Gone. Your standards and daily focus? Gone.

And with Minniemaud it really is a 180 degree turn as you have a new focus, eating, no food rules, and rest. It is very alarming as it is so different!

I had spent so long in my eating disorder world I no longer knew who I was anymore. Did I even like running? What did I like? What hobbies did I really like?! I didn’t know how to act around friends anymore either. I felt like a different person and was suddenly uncomfortable being a loud extrovert. Furthermore, I no longer felt a desire to push myself academically or be a perfectionist. That didn’t help considering I was doing a PhD!

So yes, it is a scary and deeply unsettling time. But, try to see it as a positive journey, and an exciting adventure of self exploration! For example, see this as an opportunity to discover new interests, reflect on who you REALLY are away from ED, what you really value, what type of person you want to be, what makes you happy. Therapy and talking to people can help with this stage of forming a new post-ED identity!

You might find that you want to change the direction of your life, ditch some friends you no longer relate to, drop a hobby, your grades might drop or improve, you might become lazy around the house, or suddenly decide to paint. Who knows!!

I found that being a recluse for a while helped too- when I didn’t know how to interact with others anymore because I didn’t know who I was, the only people I felt comfortable with were my closest friends and family. I avoided social occasions for a while. Eventually, I just felt ready to re-emerge onto the social scene!

But, yeah, it’s totally normal and there is no need to rush the process of rediscovery. I promise you will work it out :)


The reason why Harry wasn’t chosen for Ravenclaw was because he tried to catch the Hogwarts letters from the air instead of taking one from the fucking floor.


I hope I got the feeling right in these, but this is ‘Binge’:



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